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Warning: Potentially very triggering. Attempted suicide, self harm, mental health issues.

Silent Screams

I felt so alone
No one to talk to, no one who understands
Only tears and the razor to comfort me
And the rivets of crimson liquid.
Only fourteen years old, and I already
Want to die.

The next fifteen years pass
In a blur of failed overdoses,
Of endless cuts and scars.
Internal screaming
Pain and anger with nowhere to go
But within.

Misdiagnosed, patronised, insulted
Abused and neglected
Made to feel like a failure
Not worth helping.
Always alone,
Just wanting to be loved.

Some days I still feel numb inside
The depression looms,
Like a cancer that only wants to destroy.
Every day, a new battle, a new challenge.
A handful of pills to silence the voices.
To help survive another day.

We only get one chance at life
So perhaps it should not be wasted.

But the demons still haunt me
I still scream, but
No one hears.

Date: 2017-03-06 11:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wildrose.livejournal.com
I can relate to this so much.

Date: 2017-03-07 12:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] i-17bingo.livejournal.com
The pain, and most of all, the sheer frustration are communicated as clearly here as if you were shouting in my ear. Well done.

Date: 2017-03-07 01:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] eternal-ot.livejournal.com
*Hugs* This is powerful and heartbreaking.

Date: 2017-03-07 06:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kajel.livejournal.com
Hugs This was quite powerful.

Date: 2017-03-08 12:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] snogged.livejournal.com
This was very powerful.

Date: 2017-03-08 02:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] halfshellvenus.livejournal.com
I'm sorry it has been so hard, and I do hope that things are getting better even if slowly.

Date: 2017-03-08 05:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] magazhchi.livejournal.com
I am sorry if you are going through this. The anguish and pain really affects the reader. Well done with this work.

Date: 2017-03-10 02:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] karmasoup.livejournal.com
I'm glad you have an outlet. I hope you've found some respite.


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